I’munna Get Real, Here.

So many of you may have noticed that I’ve not been posting very consistently these past few months. Well, part of this is because hell, I’m in London, and school plus new experiences makes it difficult to strap myself down to my desk chair long enough to write anything coherent.

But also, when I do have some time alone, my mind spends much of its time sifting through complicated feelings about a relationship that ended shortly before I came here. No, I’m not pining, I’m not sad that it ended, I don’t a) want him back or b) want anyone new for quite some time… but it was a long and important relationship, and these things take time to work through. So I’m happy + pensive.

I haven’t been sharing this, mostly because no one wants to read about these things, and also, all of my close friends have certainly gotten their ears’ worth every time they’re around me, anyway. By the way, thank you guys. But I also haven’t been posting about it because I’ve been known in the past to be quite vocal about the posting of personal things on blogs (and not in a good way), and no one wants to be a hypocrite, right?

But, since I’m beginning to believe that I may be the only person ever to suffer multiple panic attacks because of a blog post (which was ridiculous, and not really about the blog anyway), I’m going to allow myself to get a little real here…

Rilo Kiley is going back on tour. I wasn’t fond of their last album, but frankly I didn’t hate it, I only PRETENDED to as my feeble protests of “but this song’s kind of okay…” got drowned out by my boyfriend claiming multiple times that the album made him want to VOMIT and JUMP OFF A CLIFF and OTHER EQUALLY UNPLEASANT/DRAMATIC THINGS. He talked me out of going to any shows together during their last tour, so I didn’t, and told myself that he was probably right…

But days after they played, he proceeded to tell me with not a small amount of glee that his friend who went told him the show was not only awesome, but probably the “best” show ever. And they played their entire repertoire, not just the new album (a selling point in his convincing me not to go). Admittedly, this guy’s ability to rain heavily on my parade is going to take awhile to work through.

But until then, Rilo’s back on tour. And I’m seeing them this time, dammit. Hell, I may go and see them more than once! Plus, their song “Breaking Up” has been important to me these last few months.

So thank you, Jenny Lewis. Thank you for a) helping me to move on and b) giving me a chance to have my own opinion about something, which is that you rock, and will always be my number one girl-crush.